( It has taken me nearly 5 months since returning to hit the point where goals seem possible, how nice that it coincides with the New Year! After several false starts the only way I can update my life is to categorize and bullet point the hell out of it. )

I just read an article in SELF that finally described me perfectly! I always said I was the most optimistic pessimist, but it turns out I'm a "defensive pessimist". I worry as a way to prevent myself from feeling deeper emotions. In any case I worry because I think it will prepare me for any situation. The only thing this worry accomplishes ( Read more... )